Cry of the Stars

When my mother told me she loved me,
I thought I needed translation.

Sweetheart? she tried, but shook her head.

I looked it up: darling, baby—
Or word by word: heart, liver, treasure, cowrie.

Precious treasure of the liver. Sweet heart
of the child. A music box, a seashell, a dumpling, a blanket,
a pair of cupped hands, a cradle, a womb—

the heart, the liver, the baby
a box for safekeeping, but

is there anything safe about a baby?

Xinganbaobei, she repeated, drawing a circle
at her chest, opening it up, showing me
myself nestled inside, as vital as any viscera:

in me, of me, she said, my sweet baby,
the child of my heart. You know?

And didn’t I?

my mother had the time to gasp
before the bowl scattered
and left its negative behind:
an old friend’s shadow, told
in the space between pieces.