I had peeked into your heart
and found the most curious hole
in plain, familiar outlines.
What could those long fissures mean,
I'd thought, if not my own
arms and legs—or those ten splayed gaps,
if not my outstretched fingers?
(You don't realize until you lie down,
how great an organ the heart is,
and how gigantic a cavity
your minuscule skeleton can't hope
to brace itself into—)
While falling, I looked up and saw
that the silhouette was still the same,
though somehow infinite,
an enormous void in your dark sky
waiting for the dawn's explosion, for
the arrival of morning fire and
its human-shaped sun.
You'd have lost yourself in me too,
just something we do:
shadows in the night unaware
of our own translucence,
of what it costs to leap, or
what it means to find ourselves
drowning, inert fixtures
dangling in each other's
stagnant blood. Waiting for the
surgeon hands and outstretched arms of
a human-shaped son.